Work

No real point to this blog today, just have to spil my thoughts. Warning: vent ahead.

I am so frustrated with work. I have been serving (yes! they are letting me serve a lot now! So happy about that!) a lot lately. Like a lot a lot. And they've been having me close a lot too, which is great for money - not so much for sleep. I am grateful for the hours, and grateful for the money. I truly truly am. And I am grateful for another chance to trust Jesus with ALL my needs, including my physical ones. But its been really rough. If it were all I were doing, I'd say bring it on, but with dance, its been pretty intense.

I'm just trying to find a balance between saying, 'ok, its a lot, but I'll push a little harder and it will be fine' and 'I'm pretty sure that this is my limit.' I just don't want to walk in to work hating it, and I want to be able to go in there with joy and knowing that I'm serving the Lord at Ruby Tuesday. And I certainly can do that with less sleep - but I must admit it is much much much easier when I am getting a decent amount of sleep and getting out of work before 11:30 on a week night, or 1am on a weekend. I wish my spiritual strength was not as tied as it is to my physical strength, but sadly they do affect each other....

Not sure what the Lord would have me do here, if I should ask for another day off (I have sundays off now, but work every other day) or do something else. Even Sunday feels stressful sometimes, because I have so much I want to/have to fit in to it. I know that this is not the way it should be....but maybe this is just a busy season in which I need to rely on the Lord more heavily? Hmm....still praying through that one.