Work in Progress

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Let's Roll


I had a moment today. A stupid/funny one...
Anyway, i was looking at my friend Naomi's pictures of China, and instantly had a "Oh! I wanna go! Send me Lord!"
And instantly had His little voice saying: "You are going. Tomorrow, you are going."

Wow. Right. Sorry about that Lord....
I leave for Japan tomorrow at 10:41 AM Mountain time. (This is shortly after I see The Last Airbender at midnight. Yes, I know I am crazy.)

I feel like this trip will personally be challenging for me.....It almost feels like it will be a test. Question mark? I don't know. Just a thought... I have had some opposition spiritually the last couple days....basically just a lack of feeling excited or involved or....anything really. Then of couse I became very selfish and it was all "me me me." Then God and I had a talk today, where He reminded me of His holiness, and how when I serve Him, in some ways I am not really a part of this equation. Anyway....
I leave tomorrow! YAY. God is faithful, I am so grateful to be going....He is sending me out!
If you think of it pray for me. I don't think I'll be blogging much while I'm there, but if you want news, go to www.magnifythelord.org and go to the Japan page where you can find updates for the trip :) Its pretty good stuff, if I say so myself.
See you on the other side of 6 weeks....

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Update + God is good

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, something having to do with the fact that the computer I was using didn't like cookies? So confused. That and the fact that my life has been crazy busy.....where to begin?

Well, we finished up the performances for CMA, that went well. Shortly after, some dear friends of ours from Japan came and visited, which was SO wonderful. They are a joy to be around, and I can safely say that they are very very high on my list of favorite people :)

Then it was just a little crazy getting ready for Japan before our teammate Christine left us for two weeks to go to camp and then the Dominican Republic on a missions trip....so that was crazy. And then she left, and then things got even crazier getting ready for dance camp! That was last week. I taught the Intermediate girls, which was such a huge blessing.....they learned their whole dance in 3 hours (crazy I know! Pretty sure that was God) and were rock stars. There were a couple nights that week that were rough, pretty much having to do with lack of sleep + believing lies that I wasn't doing any good since i wasn't seeing much response....But then God and I had a chat, and am I learning (again) to choose to trust and rest in the Lord and that He is the one working, not me. Overall, it was a fantastic week, filled with lots of fun moments, spiritual growth and good friends. I can't think of a better note I could leave on, teaching-wise. The only hard/weirdish thing was that on Friday I announced that i was leaving to go to NY, so on Friday night, everyone was all sad that they wouldn't see me again.....and I felt so heartless because I don't have time to feel sad yet, and I really do hope I see these girls again. I am just not in that place mentally .....I still felt bad though!

The next day I went to Crystal's (a girl who used to do CMA) wedding....SO beautiful. I have decided I am a fan of smaller weddings. I don't think that I could have one, because I have too many friends/people who'd be sad if I didn't invite them, but I really like the feel of them. The only *interesting* thing about this wedding (for me anyway) was the fact that I caught the bridal bouquet......yeah. Awkward turtle. Not gonna lie, it kind of freaked me out a bit. I don't really think about relationships that much....I have a life. All that aside, the only really unfortunate thing that came out of this is the fact that my sister is now convinced that she must find me a boyfriend. *sigh*

Moving on. I leave for Japan in 3 days. THREE. Crazy? Oh yeah. I am excited, I don't know that I feel prepared, but I am excited to see what the Lord will do! I haven't even begun packing, but thats okay, I don't really pack until the night before anyway. One awesome thing that I have noticed this year is that I feel like I have been prayed for a lot more than usual; it could be that the house church I attend prayed for me, and that was right after dance camp, who also prayed for us, so maybe thats why I feel more "prayed up"? Who knows. Its a good feeling though.

Also a huge praise is that I HAVE HOUSING IN NY!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord! I thought that that wouldn't happen until I was in Japan, which kind of stressed me out a little, but now that is taken care of! Thank you God. He is so Good to know just what we need, and what we can and can't handle.
Anyway, I think that is my life up until now.

Other exciting/different things: I now have light brown hair with highlights. I feel old. I am sad the pink is gone :( BUT I bought myself some converse shoes today! :) At first I wasn't sure because they aren't cheap, but I am SO happy with them already!!! Yay :)

Anways, thanks for reading this massive post.....I don't know if I can update again before Japan, but if you want email updates of what we're doing there and prayer requests and such, go to www.magnifythelord.org and click on the Japan link to be added to the list :)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Thoughts...

So the other day, I was at a dance rehearsal for Japan, and Abby, Tiffany's (Tiff is my friend/director, FYI) little sister was hanging around too. Of course, being only 9, she gets a little bored and after awhile goes off and does her own thing. She had a notebook and started drawing in it. First she drew a poster of us who are going to Japan--it was pretty great :-) But then she drew a picture of me, as a stick figure, entitled "beautyful Gwen-jo." And I don't know what it is about it, but every time I see it on my fridge, I can't help but feeling so loved and delighted and BLESSED by it. Its amazing how a gesture so simple can bring one such joy.
I can't help but thinking that that is the way God feels about our gifts to Him. Intrinsically they are not amazing or awe-inspiring (Just think--your song that you wrote is supposed to impress the Creator of Music? Hmm...). But the mere fact that you do it for Him out of love and because you simply want to bless Him makes the gift uniquely special, and it is something that will make Him smile.

Anyway, just some thoughts....hope you all are doing well :)