well...

the audition.

Parts were good, parts were bad (lets put it this way--I definitely didn't dance my best on some stuff, but danced better on others? Hopefully that makes sense...)
I loved the girls I was staying with, the director (and her parents, who are a huge part of the ministry), most of the choreography....
I left the audition pretty much just looking up at the Lord and saying "well, you take it from here!" which is a good place to be.

But, the punchline is: I got it. I got offered a trainee position at Light of the World ballet for next year.

When I found out, I was surprisingly very calm... It was really an Ok Lord--you guide me and I will follow you, moment. I am very happy and excited to see what the next year brings, but it is always bittersweet to think about leaving. I don't usually anticipate these things--I just tend to deal with them as they come, live in the moment-- but this one I know I will have to think through ahead of time. New York is a long long way from Colorado. I will have to pay rent, find a job to pay the rent, be a responsible adult in every sense of the phrase. My friends and family are not nearby at all....I will move out there not really knowing anyone.... its big change. Basically moving out there by myself is going to require a big leap of faith, trusting the Lord to be my strength and my provider....

I already get sad if I think about leaving. I have so many strong relationships here in Colorado, so many memories....not to mention the fact that I will miss the state itself (every time I look at the mountains I think about how I will miss them...). [side note: I will REALLY miss Chipotle. Unfortunately they have NO Chipotle, or Chik-Fil-A in Syracuse....so not okay...] Deep breaths Gwen-jo. Good thing I have time to process through all this....

On the other hand, I am also really excited about what the Lord has in store. There is a possible missions trip to Peru pending, and Hannah Beaver from Ballet Magnificat! is coming to set a ballet on LWB that is about the persecuted church in China, which is SO cool. As you can see, I have quite the mix of emotions happening here....

Anyways, thanks for listening guys. thanks for praying as well--the Lord is faithful, and I am very blessed to have such friends standing and supporting me.