Taxes and other mean things

I. Hate. Taxes.

End of story. They're mean. I feel as if they were sprung upon me this year---they hit me out of the blue. Blindsided by it. I pretty much don't know what I'm doing. At all. Something about coming up with the sum of my income (by adding my W-2 and the 1099) and then getting to deduct things. That is about the extent of all I know. Thank you Lord for giving me a Dad who is an accountant!!!!! I did learn that I can deduct my dance shoes and classes and Itunes stuff for CMA though--thats good. That stuff is super expensive. I think I will still have to pay some (lame) but I'm hoping it won't be too much....
my mom keeps telling me that I should marry someone who is good with money. heh. SO true.


Anyways--on to other mean things. Like my face. I recently started going on this acne medication called Accutane (recently here meaning 2 days ago) that basically sucks all the moisture from your body. Its intense stuff---for women, they make you go on at least 2 forms of birthcontrol to make absolutely sure that you don't get pregnant, because the birth defects are so bad. On every piece of paper they give me, on every single container of pills it says in big bold letters DO NOT GET PREGNANT. Multiple times. Thanks. We get the message. Oy. Anyways, despite the fact that this stuff is supposed to get ride of my zits, I am actually getting more zits right now. Awesome. *sigh* Oh and some of the side effects can include depression and thoughts of suicide. The things we do for beauty....

Yet another mean thing---self motivation and self-discipline. I used to be self-disciplined. I don't know what happened. Specifically having to do with dance and this audition coming up....I don't want to do it. Not so much the audition itself, as the classes I need to take to work toward the audition. I don't want to go. I have been taking ballet class on pointe which is highly unfortunate....it makes me feel as if I can't dance. At all. I do like my teacher, but she pushes me REALLY hard, and is one of those teachers who gives more advice and corrections than encouragement. Which isn't a bad thing, its just kind of discouraging at this point in my life. In any case, for whatever reason I feel unmotivated, I just need to make myself do it. I'm going to the audition, I already bought my ticket, I do think the Lord wants me to go to the audition at least. After that? Who knows? At this point I feel uncertain about what this fall will hold. Trying to take this one day at a time---you have to walk before you can run.

Well, that's it folks. The three biggest (current) plagues of my life, right there. You know what they say; "there are two things in life you can be sure about--death and taxes." And you know what else they say-- "life sucks and then you die." (haha. Just kidding. These things are but trifles, they're just annoying :) )